Blog #48

We have moved to our own home and we don't have internet yet so my blogs have slowed down, and I hate that because so much has happened that I don't want to get behind!!

Our move was crazy but incredible in so many ways! I am just amazed at how God has provided! Maybe amazed is the wrong word, it should be overwhelmed! I feel like He has opened the floodgates of Heaven and poured out His love on me and my family. I wake up feeling weepy (happy) and go to bed feeling the same way :) From the first night we moved in it was like I was taking energy pills. I literally got stronger every day. Now I go up and down my steps with ease and I can do almost anything! I even hung my husbands closet for him and put all his clothes up. (who's the man?!) All I have left in my house to work on is my little office space, and that is because we aren't sure yet how we want it set up, but everything else is set up. Pictures, knick-knack's, clothes, dishes, closets....I am soooo happy!! I get up in the morning and spend my time with the most AWESOME GOD ever!! I declare, I have read more than I can count that He knows my name. How reassuring to be reminded daily?

We had visitors our first weekend and I truly thought I would have to be lying down the whole time, but NO! Not with God in control! I have had visitors every weekend but one and I have felt wonderful and have been able to cook and clean.....who get's excited about cooking and cleaning? That would be me!! I have been to church every Sunday and Wednesday since we have moved and it is just the most overwhelming feeling....am I boring anyone? I hope not. I just know so many have prayed for healing and I am on that road.... God is answering and I want to shout to the world that I am getting better.

We had dinner last night and I made a pork roast with cabbage. It made me weepy....(no estrogen definitely magnify's that!!) I was happy to be cooking, to be with my family and to be eating! Isn't it amazing how we take things for granted then something happens and all of a sudden our whole perspective changes? The smallest things make me happy, but my joy comes from the love of my Father! I love how He loves me, and I get to be with Him everyday. How fortunate we are, and yet we don't even realize it! I hope all who have been praying for me and keeping up with me see that I am no one special....God loves you just the same way and what is He doing to get your attention? What does He have to do to get your attention? I hope it isn't too painful, but we have a tendency to ignore anything and everything until it gets painful ..... then we look to the Father.

I am not sure why it happened this way for me, but I know I am not the same. I don't want to go back to the way it was. I keep putting remembrance symbols around me. I don't want to forget, I don't want to down play it, I want to embrace it and let it grow. I want to dive into my relationship with the Father and I don't want to look back!! I shared my last blog with you all, it was a life changing event for me....my sister sent me a message on June 22, she thought she was going to read My Utmost for His Highest by Oswald Chambers for June 22. But she accidentally read July 22. Please read it if you have a copy of it. It gave me goose bumps.... Being sanctified by God. How he strips away all of what we are to realize who we are in Him. It is awesome!!

I will try to post sooner, I am sitting at Duncan Donuts drinking a Cherry Coke, hopefully with some prayer, we will be able to get internet soon. God will work it out. He always does. :)

But as of today, I am ready to go home, I am ready to stay.....I am His, He can do what He wants with me. :) It's a good place to be :)