Blog #23

I am just amazed at how God is slowly healing me. And I truly believe that is what is going on! I am able to get up now without holding my head with my hand, I can lay on either side now, I can look straight up and straight down, and pretty far left to right. I am just amazed and overwhelmed! I slowly am getting better every day and I can see it happening. How incredible is that? And now my energy is growing and so is my strength....God is sooo good!!

I have been able to fully get back into my routine and now I am doing two dives a day. It has been hard on my schedule but it has been worth it. I think I will be able to drive myself soon and that would be so awesome! We just keep seeing things that God is doing and it is leaving me speechless. My sister is inviting my naturalists down to have a seminar at her church and then a Sunday morning service. They are so excited! I don't blame them! I am hoping that the Lord will make it possible for me to go down with them, that would be so awesome to see my sister's home and church and meet everyone who has been praying for me. And her church is so excited to have them come down! How cool!! I am meeting a couple from their church on Monday. The wife has cancer and is starting treatments. It is exciting!! God is good, all the time!!

Blog #22

I have been really emotionally tired for the last month and a half. It has been hard to be in the hospital eating what I don't need to eat and drinking what I know is bad for me. Even the pain meds were hard to take because I know how they affect my body. Then just when I start to feel better I get a sinus infection. (which means no dives till it's done) Then I get my ovaries out and have a body full of gas that can't go in a chamber till it is out of my body and not causing me pain. So this week I am finally back to my full regime. It feels like my muscles have atrophied down to jello and I am stupidly weak!! Try not to get discouraged? Well, on top of that I feel like I am keeping my children from living their lives and I don't want them to grow bitter with me or resentful. My husband has the church on his shoulders, his family and me.....he tries not to let me see his stress, but I know him.....and I try not to let him see my stress, but he knows me! Vicious circles! And I know the devil is trying to fan the flames as much as possible!

My middle son got a job, my youngest is in high school, and my daughter is my personal driver and assistant. I don't know what I would do without any of them, they all help in one way or another. I know my Father is with me, I can feel His presence and I know every tear I cry He knows and holds in His hands. I find that I need Him more everyday and I know He wants to go through this with me, and for me not to carry it alone. How do I thank Him? I hope I can live in a way that honors Him, but even if He calls me home, I will still love Him!!

I read "The Shack" last Tuesday. My brother called and asked me to read it. I know I am behind the times....that seems to be how I do things. I don't really follow the crowd, ever....so I am behind in reading this book. But, I truly loved it!! I have never read a book that shows the love of God so thoroughly!!!! Maybe others will read it and draw closer to Him and figure out that He loves them too. I hope so!

So now I am back in my full routine of vitamins, herbs, enzymes, veggie juicing, hyperbaric dives, and coffee enemas. I am tired but getting stronger. We seem to get what we need when we need it and no sooner. But God always provides!! He is sooo good to me! I just pray for strength, and plenty of it!! It is His strength that I need because mine is truly not good enough!! And I truly hope people are praying for my husband! He truly carries more than he should.

Blog # 20

I had such a good visit with my sisters when they brought my mom up to see me. And I truly believe God brought us together for a reason. They went with me to do my treatments and we had such a good time and truly they scales fell from their eyes on what we put into our bodies and how it affects us. It was wonderful to just let my naturalist doctors talk and hear all that they know and how God has worked out their ministries and healed so many people. It lit a fire under my sisters and they went home and want to change and let others know they need to change as well. It's kind of funny to watch it affect others they way it affected me. I understand and it makes me excited all over again.

But on my end, I am getting ready for surgery tomorrow and I am having to drink a gallon of Golytely and it is truly not of God!! That is the most horrible stuff and I feel for anyone that has had to endure that!! But I will truly be empty by tomorrow!! Ugh!!

I am trying not to get irritated with some of the things that has happened with my doctor, but it is difficult. I went in today and he was out of town. And his replacement asked why i was there and I said I didn't know, I already knew what the bone scan said, and my surgery isn't till tomorrow. And he said, you haven't even had surgery yet, and I said, no. He said, I'm sorry for making you wait, you don't need to be here. I will tell the receptionist not to charge you and we'll schedule you for about 6weeks from now. I'm so sorry.

How irritating!! I wasted two hours for nothing! It was very frustrating! To say the least. But what do you do? I am at there mercy..... not any more!! I am so thankful that I am going to be starting some different treatments after I have my surgery. And I totally believe that when I go back in six weeks I will be cancer Free!!!!!