Blog : #16

Our youth group is having a car wash tomorrow at Rite Aid to help raise money for medical bills. I am just amazed at how the Lord has taken care of our needs! I shouldn't be, He is so faithful! Every time we start to wonder how we are going to make it another check shows up in the mail. I can see the Lord rearranging my life and it's kind of weird, like watching a play. I got home yesterday after treatments and just sat in the driveway talking to Patsy and thinking... I don't know what the Lord is doing or why, but I can feel things changing. I feel very unworthy of even the help that people offer. Who am I? I'm just some average "Joe" who is fighting cancer and there are so many others who are as well. I find myself wanting to do all I can to tell others about what I am doing and allow God to use me anyway He wants. It feels like I'm coming out of hibernation and wiping the sleep from my eyes and starting to focus and what I am focusing on is so different from what I have ever seen before. Kind of like salvation. It makes you look at things very differently and react and act differently as well. I hope I am making sense, because this is hard to put into words.

It has also given me a burden for my doctors and their ministry. They love God so much and because of their love for God they love their patients whole heartedly. It is just incredible to watch these people come through their doors and the devotion they feel towards them is unstoppable! They feel gratitude that my doctors were willing to do whatever they could to heal them. Not just treat symptoms but heal them!! They have gone so above and beyond with me it blows my mind! One of them said this past week..."Robin, I know this is expensive for you right now, just keep track of what you owe us and pay it as you can." They weren't even worried, they just knew they were supposed to treat me and God would make a way. If they told me that once they told me 20 times. How can you not feel love and appreciation for someone who is willing to do that? I pray all the time that the Lord will bless their ministry and keep them financially stable so they will never have to close their doors.

Needless to say, it has changed my circle of friends as well. I am getting to know so many new people because of this. But, it is all in God's hands. How comforting!! Come what may, I'll continue to be thankful!

Well, I am off of hyperbaric's for a week and my brother and family is coming for a visit. I will still be going up on Monday because a friend of mine has an aunt who is coming up from NC to start treatments and she is a little nervous. It will be a good week. I also have a teen from Missouri coming in to visit as well! I'm so excited!!!!!

Blog : #15

I am a little weepy today. My neck is a constant reminder of what I am doing and why. Then I get cards and sometimes with checks inside and I feel unworthy. I couldn't get through this without others help and God knows exactly what we need when we need it and He provides!! It all seems so incredible sometimes! I started on two more different types of pills today and got two checks in the mail for the exact amount of the pills. Only God can do that!! It is special enzymes that won't stay in my stomach but go straight to my blood stream and a special pro biotic. If it wasn't for my neck I would feel like a million bucks! But I can't complain, I've seen so many people who are much worse off than me.

I met a lady on Monday whose vertebrae is ate up with cancer and the doctor's told her she needed to call in hospice. She came to see my naturalists and we talked for about 45min. She said she wasn't done fighting yet and she wanted to live. We stood and cried together...then I get there Tuesday morning and find out she just didn't want to change her eating habits so she wasn't going to come for treatments!!! What are we coming to if we let our love of food keep us from LIVING?!! I know where I am going when the Lord takes me home, but if He will let me stay longer and be here for my kids and my husband and my ministry....then I would like to stay a little longer!! I was having a hard time wrapping my brain around it. I'm thinking she may have just been tired and just couldn't fight anymore. Funny, I look into the faces of those around me and it stirs the fire in me and makes ignoring the pain so easy. If God wants me to fight and do all I can, then I will fight...And Do All I Can!!

On to happier things! My husband's cousin is organizing a benefit in my honor to help pay for my treatments. (Thank the Lord and He gets all the credit!!) It will be in about three weeks, so if you could just mention that in your prayers.... whoever is reading this, that would be wonderful!! Thanks!!

Blog : #14

I had a good week and I am so tired!! I have one more week of hyperbaric treatments before I can have a break. That will be 40 treatments!! WOW!! Time sure does fly by!! It never ceases to amaze me how I will reach a point of not knowing how to pay for my next weeks treatments and the Lord just surprises me! Two months of treatments and so many other things and we have been able to stay above water! We are coming up on some new treatments that I need to start and I know the Lord will help us with them as well.

One of them is my enzyme treatments. I will be taking enzymes very aggressively over the next couple of months because they will go straight to the cancer and attack the cell walls. Yay!! That is just what I want to hear!

Oh, by the way, I was talking to my naturalists and they have been helping me with my neck and Friday one of them gave me some acupuncture therapy. It gave me instant relief! It was actually quite incredible. Then he used pressure points as well, I was just amazed at how well it gave me relief!! As I was lying on the table he prayed for me and my healing. Where do you ever run across doctors like that?!!! It was very encouraging!! I find myself praying that the Lord will continue to bless their ministry. So many people need them.

Speaking of needing them, a friend has an aunt who was diagnosed with breast cancer and she is going to start seeing my doctors a week from Monday. Say some prayers for her, she will be renting a duplex from month to month for as long as she needs to be in the area. It won't be easy for her. I'm going to do whatever I can to help her out. :)

Well, I have one more week and then a break! ahhhh! Can't wait!!

Blog : #13

I have had a long week this week. My neck has been hurting so bad and my doctors told me to rub it down with ice and I can't believe how much it helped! But after doing a bunch of searching on line and going over my review of my last scan, I believe it is the cancer in my vertebrae that is causing the discomfort. It is funny how I can go through all the right steps and know I am doing the right thing and the devil tries to step in and crush my hope. I'm thankful I know the God of this world who thinks cancer is such a small thing!! I am very ready to be past this point but I know it could take some time because it is in my bones. Patience isn't quite so easy when it takes months.....but at least this time I feel really, really good. LOL! I'm not full of chemicals that make me feel horrible and even smell bad, but full of veggies and vitamins and oxygen that give me energy and strength!! Thank the Lord!!

Blog : #12

I love hearing good news when I go see my naturalists. They are so encouraging and they make me laugh! I am so thankful that they have such a love for God. It just pours out of them!! I was talking with them last week and they wanted me to share what was going on with me to a gentleman who just arrived to do his hyperbaric dive. So I shared what all was going on with me then he shared his testimony! Wow!! It was awesome!! He had had a stroke and lost all of his vision in his left eye and couldn't walk without assistance. He was walking fine and had his vision completely restored!! How awesome is that?! Oxygen therapy is just incredible!!

Another gentleman had colon cancer and he has been doing exactly my same regimen for three months and went in last Friday and the doctor couldn't find any cancer anywhere! God is so awesome! It is just incredible to me to see so many people walk through their doors and receive healing and everyone there knows that it is God who has done the healing!! I am very thankful that God has brought these two brothers into my life. They have been a tremendous blessing!!

Blog : #11

Hey, I haven't posted since Sunday, and it has been a crazy week. But, you learn something new every day, as the old saying goes.... I have been testing my pH everyday to make sure it is not acidic and I can't get higher than 7.0 so I talked to my doctors about it and they told me to use cider vinegar. And not just any cider vinegar but the brand name "Bragg's" organic apple cider vinegar with "the Mother". Now if you are like me I was like..."what is that?!" But okay, I will get it and take two tablespoon's worth three or four times a day so I can raise my alkalinity. It is cheap and easy to use and is good for so much more than just alkalinity that I am pretty excited about using it but I still had no clue what "the Mother" was until my mother-in-law arrived and had to explain. Then I rolled with laughter! It is when the vinegar gets cloudy and looks like it has stuff floating in it. LOL!! That's what they called it when she was growing up and they always threw it out when that happened because they thought it had gone bad! I learn something new everyday!! LOL!! Okay, this is what it says on the bottle which makes perfect sense as to why it would help with alkalinity and even fighting cancer and other things.

"Raw Apple Cider Vinegar is full of zesty natural goodness and contains the amazing "mother" of vinegar which occurs naturally as connected strand-like chains of protein enzyme molecules and is highly regarded throughout history. Many medical studies show the health benefits of Apple Cider Vinegar. In 400 BC Hippocrates, the Father of Medicine, used it for its amazing natural cleansing, healing, and energizing health qualities."

Pretty amazing huh?! The enzymes are what fight the cancer cells, need I say more? So after my doctors introduced me to Bragg's I have been using it this week three to four times a day. I get a half glass of green tea and add some Stevia then two tablespoons of vinegar. On the bottle it even recommends adding a sweetener to help with the sour taste. But it only lists natural sweeteners like honey, molasses and....Stevia! You know I was happy! That's what I use and it is the one sweetener that my naturalists said to use.

My only negative has been stress, that I thought I wasn't feeling, but my neck is revealing the truth. It has been hurting since I found out and my doctor told me today that I have to relax and not worry so my neck muscles will relax. Well, that is so much easier said than done! But, I will try harder..... to relax! LOL!!

Blog : #10

Hey, I have been researching B-17 or Laetrile and it is incredible! I took some on Friday and it really made me tired but I have studied and discovered that it will kill cancer and they have banned it in the states. My husband came home with a book that one of his customers shared with him after they found out that I have cancer in my bones and that I am having to fight it naturally because there is nothing else they can do for me. It is a book that will enlighten you and make you fighting mad! I want to scream from the rooftops that this country doesn't want to cure you of cancer because they make too much money from it!! What have we come to that we would rather be rich than alive?! Where is human compassion?! The book is entitled "Cancer, Step Outside the Box" by Ty Bollinger. If you would like to order the book you can go to www.cancertruth.net. I highly recommend it for anyone who is going through cancer or if you know someone who is.... We are living in an ignorant society and happy to be so. It is time we educated ourselves and stopped letting others determine our wellbeing!!

I have been studying liquid oxygen and what I keep coming back to is food grade hydrogen peroxide. It seems to have all the right qualities and not all the propaganda that goes with all the other brands of liquid oxygen. Not that i'm saying they won't work, but why pay for a name when you can get something that will do the same thing for less?

I know I am a little fired up, but at the heart of almost every disease seems to be a lack of oxygen in the cell. Listen to a quote from the book I mentioned above....

"Once the body (specifically the liver, gallbladder, kidneys, and bowels) loses its ability to process all the toxins and pollutants we are bombarded with every day, the body's oxygen supply dwindles, the immune systems begin to collapse, the body's pH becomes more and more acidic (i.e. acidosis) , and we have the perfect breeding ground for deadly microbes and parasites. These microbes are the end result when our body's immune system has lost the ability to protect its cells from carcinogens. These viruses, bacteria, parasites, and fungi act as the actual catalyst for cancer and nearly all other diseases. By "hijacking" a healthy aerobic cell, these bacterium and virus invaders start exhausting the cell's oxygen and energy supply, until the cell either dies or mutates into an anaerobic cell. This anaerobic cell (i.e. cancer cell) now relies on fermenting sugar to produce energy." pg. 194

Does this not just give you chills?? Why won't the medical community share this knowledge with us and help us to fight the disease not the symptom? Not one time did my four doctors tell me to take sugar out of my diet! I needed oxygen and alkalinity and they treated the symptom not the source. I hope others will listen, I pray they will. Maybe someone will realize that sometimes our doctors don't have our best interests at heart whether intentional or not. We need to be educated. And we need it now!

Blog : #9

Ok, I need to share some humor today and I know it is of a sensitive nature, but please laugh with me!

I have gone through the whole gambit with this breast cancer and today I have had my last "procedure". I had to go to Nashville early this morning to get my tattoos. Now let me explain. Since having chemo, a bilateral mastectomy, reconstructive surgery, radiation, more reconstructive surgery, and finally nipple reconstruction I have reached my final step to looking completely normal again. Tattoos. That is tattoos on my skin where nipples should be to make it look like normal.

Because of the sensitive nature of this procedure I thought it a good idea to talk to one of the technicians at the clinic before I did my hyperbaric dive. Since it is ink and A&D ointment on my skin and the chamber forces oxygen into your body, I didn't want to do anything that could harm me. So....I gave one of the tech's a call. I told him briefly of the situation and explained that I had just acquired two "tattoos" and if I would be okay to take a dive. He said he would check it out and see what was in the ointment before I got there.

Well, I arrived and he wasn't there yet so I took my time, procrastinated....then could wait no longer and went to the other tech and started to get into a chamber. I truly believed I wouldn't have to share my sensitive situation with anyone else, when low and behold I received a phone call that my daughter ran in to tell me the tech had said to wait till he could talk to me. Well he called the other tech's phone and told him to hold up on me getting in then asked to talk to me. So, trying to be discreet I walked out of the room and answered his questions....how big are the tattoos? do you have gauze covering them? not much A&D ointment? etc....

So, I walk back over to the tech and hand his phone back and go to get into the chamber and tell him I can go ahead and start. He just looks at me.....waiting......(here it comes...)" Is everything ok?"

Well, now I have to explain. (I didn't want to go here just because of the awkwardness of it all!!) So in trying to explain, and I'm thinking it is obvious, he says, "oh, you got tattoos?"

I reply, "Yes, I needed them to complete my whole process of reconstruction." (This should explain everything)

Tech: "So where did you get them?"

Me: "Ummm, after my reconstruction, I needed them to look normal again." (ok, now he get's it!)

Tech: "So where did you get them?"

Me: (AHHHHHH!) (tapping chest) "I needed them to look normal after surgery...."

Tech: OHHH! uhh, ok, yeah, I have uh,, I understand.

Me: (Yes! Finally, now I can dive and not have to face this anymore!!)

One hour and fifteen minutes later.....

My other tech has arrived (the one I called discreetly) and he helps me out. And as I'm climbing out he says with a smile, "So, where'd you get them?"

Me: (ok, He didn't get it!) "Umm, after my surgery and reconstruction I needed tattoos to complete the appearance."

2nd tech: "so where did you get them?"

Me: (okay, this is crazy!!) (tapping chest again...) "I needed tattoos to look normal after recontruction"

2nd tech: "Ohhhhh! (flush) Okay!"

Me: (ok, i'm out and no more questions!) Yeah, it's been a long year and I'm glad that I'm done with all of that."

Dr. #1 : "Hey girl, where are those tattoos?" (the two techs "no, no...you don't want to ask about them")

Me: (okay, I'm done with subtle!) "Uh, they are for me to look normal..

Dr. #1: (interjecting) Where are they? (laughing)

(the other to techs are raising their voices, "no, you don't want to know!"

Me: (Grrrr!) My breasts. So I will look normal after surgery.

Dr. #1: Oh!!!! I forgot, okay, okay, uh....

Dr. #2: (walks in smiling) Let me see those tattoos girl!"

(All the guys yelling...."NO")

Me: " I got nipples tattooed on me so I can look normal after my bilateral mastectomy.

Dr#2: (eyes bug out) Oh, um sorry, uh, yeah, that's right, that's right.

Subject change!! Me: So my dive went well and I am feeling good...

They were never so happy to change the subject!! Lol!!

Can someone laugh with me!!!???

On the flip side, that was my last step to complete my year of terror! Yay!!!!!

Blog : #8

You know, I have a hard time with people I know struggling with cancer after everything I have been through. I just want to shout to people that they need to listen and change their lives!! We truly are what we eat!! All this food goes into our bodies and it is so processed that there isn't much left that is even beneficial to us. But how can we stop when it is so convenient to run through a drive through or put in a frozen pizza? I guess it doesn't hit us or enter our reality until a doctor says..."you have cancer". That's when our world stops and we decide to do whatever it takes to live. Can't we get to the point where we don't want to hear those words? I have a friend in VA that they put back on chemo pills and it is so hard to hear. I want so much to force her to take oxygen and veggies and herbs and not go through that pain again. But if they don't want to, what do i do? Okay, moving on....I am looking into liquid oxygen. I have heard so much about it and the positive effects that may even speed up my recovery, I am getting excited. I will let everyone know how it goes. :) I have had very positive effects from hyperbaric treatments, I think liquid oxygen will be awesome!!

Blog : #7

This is a little personal but incredible at the same time. After going through some serious chemotherapy for 5months, my ovaries shut down about half way through. The doctor said that they might not start up again. So 4wks ago he ran some tests (after being shut down for 15 mos) and told me I was post-menopausal. But.....on Thursday morning.... my cycles started again! What? I thought I was POST-menopausal?! I guess I must be doing something right for my ovaries to be rejuvenated!! What a God thing!!! I am pumping oxygen and veggies into my body at an absurd rate and it's like God is letting me know that I am doing the right thing. How incredible!! Of course on the flip side I would have been happy to never have it back, but my body is healing so I am very happy!! :)

It was a long day today, but it seems that I am continuing to feel better and lose weight. That's a great positive, but now I'm starting to worry about clothes that fit. So, everyday, I get up and start the routine of making myself healthy. It can get tedious to remember everything that I need to do everyday, but I know it is exactly what I need to do to live. That makes the choice rather simple.

Juicing, herbs, vitamins, coffee enemas, oxygen treatments, ph strips, ph water only, and then for oxygen treatments no make-up, lotion, hair spray, jewelry, or metal. Then come home and add a little color back to my face so I can wash it off a couple of hours later, after I make some organic coffee for the next day. If I could have some other purpose other than trying to live...and I don't mean that glibly, it would give me something else to focus on. I am the type of person that normally stays very busy, and now all my focus is on me and very tedious things. It can get discouraging. That sounds silly doesn't it? I don't mean it to, I would just like to focus my energy on something instead of me. I have enjoyed great times alone with God and I find myself thanking Him for even allowing me the opportunity to go through this but it is hard not to feel a little restless. I am trying to share with anyone who will listen to my testimony all that I have learned, but I wish I had something more constructive to do.

My life has been so turned upside down. I am looking forward to everything going back to normal as soon as they tell me my cancer is gone!! Yeah, that's what I am looking forward to. :)