Blog #33

I have been so overwhelmed with moving that I haven't blogged in a couple of weeks. So I am going to have to fill you in on what has been going on. I was sent to my radiologist which I conveyed in my last blog. Since then I have radiated my right humerus and have moved to E. TN. It has been really amazing to see how God has just really worked out the details of our move and our needs. I have blistered under my arm from the radiation and my mother-in-law has the most incredible burn ointment I have ever used!! It is called Furacin and they will not prescribe it willingly. I don't know why!!! I was completely raw where it blistered and just rubbed my skin off. The doctors recommended Eucerin but it doesn't do anything but keep it moist and help it not to crack. The Furacin......after applying a thin coat and going to bed, I woke up with no pain and the raw was completely healed!!!!! I used some more the next night but I didn't even NEED it!!!!! It just made me mad at the medical community all over again! Okay, I'm off the side bar! lol!!

I am thrilled to be on all of my vitamins, foot detoxing every other day, sleeping on a magnetic pad, breathing oxygen two hours everyday.....all is going well! I have less and less pain every day from my neck and I don't feel pain in any other spot :) God is so incredible!!!! I don't know how to thank Him enough! Woo! Hoo!!

Now on weird happy thoughts....I was a size 20 when I started all this natural stuff and now I am a size 10....WoW!! I haven't been a 10 since my first year of marriage! LOL!! It makes the "cancer" thing have a nice side...:) And goodness knows it needs a nice side!! I went to a Mexican restaurant tonight and they made me some grilled veggies without using oil...HOW nice!!!! It was absolutely divine!!! How great to come across places that will cater to what I need. It was very nice and I told them so. I will sooo go back there again!! (Yet I know that God is truly the one to orchestrate those kinds of things :) He truly is good!!

Blog #32

I am just overwhelmed at how the Lord is taking care of me and my family! It is hard to put into words!! We are going to move to East Tennessee and it was no easy decision, but it has literally been like watching a story unfold. Every step of the way has been taken care of and provided for by God. Just when I get control of my emotions it seems like the Lord opens up the flood gates of Heaven and dumps another load. We have had friends help us move and so far it has been the easiest move we have ever had!! But I was laughing at the radiologists office last week when he said I shouldn't be lifting anything heavy!! That's all I have been doing!! Of course not the real heavy stuff i left all of that for my teenage boys, but a lot of it I have been doing myself! LOL!! Even in that i am just amazed at how the Lord has taken care of me!

My husband already has a job lined up, which was totally the Lord and it should be a very easy transition. The church has been so understanding and supportive, I don't know if I can cry anymore, or smile anymore!! Then a good cancer report on top of that?! My goodness!! Yeah, you get the picture :)

Well, since I have started using a magnetic mattress pad, I am amazed at how well I sleep and how much better I feel!! I ordered a magnetic bracelet and necklace with earrings and I never take them off. Unless I am doing a foot detox...LOL! No metal allowed on during a detox :) I am amazed at how much better it makes me feel! I am so glad for my friend Crystal who went through cancer and has none left in her body anywhere! That she clued me in to magnets! They are just incredible! The help to balance out your acidity levels, making you more alkaline; it increases your blood flow; and it helps your blood cells absorb oxygen. Sound like a perfect "fighting cancer" cocktail?! That is exactly what I thought!!

Then that wonderful foot detox machine she shared with me, you would not believe what the nasty stuff was that came out of me last year the first time I tried one! It was after chemo and radiation so it was as black as tar!!!! But when she brought hers over two weeks ago and let me use it till mine came in....it was burnt orange. From black as tar to burnt orange is incredible! It told me quite loudly that all this detox and veggies I have been doing has been working!!!! Praise God!!

To have exactly what I need to be doing placed in my hands has just been overwhelming! And I will still be able to do the dives in E. TN because there is a clinic there with hyperbaric dive tanks! Woo! Hoo!!!! And I know what herbs and enzymes I need to be taking, with my veggie juice and vitamins....How incredible is that? It isn't it's just God, taking care of His children!! Okay, I am starting to cry again!!

God is so good, all the time!!

Blog #31

I am just amazed at how God works!! This week has been one long mental battle and at every turn I was saying out loud, "I don't care what you are trying to do satan, I am trusting God!!" I know that I serve a God that is bigger than any cancer and it is all up to Him and His will for me. So knowing this my x-rays on Monday were laid in His hands. I went today to see my radiologist and see what he wanted to do, it anything needed to be done. This is what I found out.

When my oncologist told me there was some spots still growing it feels like getting kicked in the gut one more time. So I just said, I don't care what they say, I know that I am doing what is right!! Trust and faith reach a whole new level! So my hot spots were, according to my oncologist, my hip and neck. So he scheduled some x-rays to see if anything needed to be done, if it was critical or not. My radiologist immediately pulled up my bone scans and x-rays and showed them to me.

Hmmmmm. I was looking at my neck, it was substantially smalller! My hip didn't look larger either.....but my arm looked not so good. So, what is going on? So I say it out loud to my radiologist..."My tumor in my neck looks half to three fourths smaller! Am I seeing that right?"

Dr. "Yes, I'm not worried about your neck."

Me "Okay, but my hip and pelvic doesn't look bigger either....?"

Dr. "Well, there is activity but not much growth, we just don't want it to get to where it hurts."

Me "Oh, well my arm doesn't look good and they said it was minimal growth."

Dr. "Yes, that is the only spot of real concern. And it isn't life threatening, just painful and we don't want that bone to break."

Me "Oh....okay. I lift stuff all the time....that's kind of scary!"

Dr. "Just be careful and once we fix it you will be fine."

Me "Ok....what are the other spots on my vertebrae?"

Dr. "They are two more smaller spots that have been there but they are receding."

Me "Getting smaller?"

Dr. "Yes, the hormone inhibitor must be working."

Me (winking at my daughter) "Yeah, it must be. So my tumors in my neck and back are smaller and in my hip and pelvic bone are about the same, so the only real "growth" is in my arm?"

Dr. "yes, and we will take care of that for you."

How is that for God working things out? He even said in his conversation with me that he wanted to take care of that spot in my arm so I don't have to come back in six months and take care of it again. Then he laughed and said he knew i'd still be here, but I shouldn't have to worry about it later. Where is my uncool-ogist when I need him?!!!!!! It made for a good day :) God has taken care of me every step of the way.... how can I NOT praise Him?!!!!

Now I am just looking forward to the day when I can say it is gone! That will be a pink letter day......sorry, just thought pink with breast cancer....oh, never mind! It will be a day to remember for the rest of my life!!!

Blog #30

I went to see my uncool-ogist today and I was totally surprised!! He was pleasant and helpful and wanted to do everything he could to help us. I wonder if he realized that we were getting ready to find another doctor? We did ask my PCP to ask about changing doctors and she did talk to the oncology about it. So maybe he caught wind of if, I don't know, he was just really nice and accommodating.

The two spots that are growing are my hip and my neck, so he scheduled an appointment for an x-ray to make sure it isn't dangerous for me. He wants to stay on top of it and not let it get to the point of danger. He didn't even bring up chemo which totally surprised me! And I think he finally realized that we want to pursue this naturally and we believe in it. He mentioned that he was a fellow "believer" and that he was just concerned that God would answer our prayer with "no". It was truly interesting to hear him say that. I don't think he understands faith. But maybe I will get a chance to show him, for the next 50 years!!

I have had sooo much support and positive response from friends and family it is truly what we needed!! When we get kicked by satan (I don't feel like capitalizing his name) it is so wonderful to have the family there for you and help you stay focused and positive!! I am truly thankful and grateful!! God has been good to me in more ways than I can count. I look forward to the day when I can say, "I'm free!! It is all gone and it is all God!!" That will be the day of rejoicing and I can't wait!!!

So next on my agenda...... foot detox and magnetic mattress pad. One more thing in my routine and that is okay as long as I am here to talk about it!! :) :)

Blog #29

I found out today that my cancer is still growing. Not fast but still growing!! I would just love to burn it out of my body!!!!! I guess that's what chemo does but burns everything else as well....lol! I am not interested in that at alll but this cancer is starting to get on my nerves!! I was talking to a friend of mine who was in even worse shape than me and she is cancer free and has been for three years. I think I am going to take up her routine and do everything that she did, because I would like to be cancer free as well. She actually was cancer free in three months, and she had tumors everywhere!!! So, I am going to start doing foot detoxes and see if I can get a mattress pad full of magnets. Yeah, I am doing everything else she did, and those are the only two things that I am not doing. I am getting tired of this fight, but I am not going to stop!! God is still bigger than any cancer that comes my way and I am claiming the victory now!!!!!!!!!

It is funny, I was feeling discouraged today, then I went to see my friend and now I feel fine :) It is great to see God bring things together and give me hope. I love how He loves me and takes care of me!! Soooooo, I am getting enzymes, herbs, probiotics, oxygen, vitamins, coffee enemas, and now I will be sucking the muck out of my body through my feet and sleeping in a magnetic field. Whew! I feel tired already!! Well, I go see the evil oncologist tomorrow.....I guess I better start saying some prayers now, so I won't say something mean. LOL!!

Blog #28

I went to St. Thomas today for a bone scan and a CT scan. I hate CT scans and the nasty stuff they make you drink!! It all seemed to go well and I am feeling very optimistic about what God is going to do. I have had my ovaries out for two months so everything I am doing is going directly against the cancer. It makes me feel very optimistic. But I still don't trust my oncologist with whatever news I will receive on Thursday when I see him, so I am going to call my primary care physician and see if he can get my results and let me know what they were. I have a feeling even if everything has shrunk he will say there is still evidence of growth and that I need to start chemo. So I want the opinion of my doctor who is a Christian and actually wants to help me. It is hard to consider even looking at my oncologist again, let alone hearing him give me results like he cares when I know he does not.

But, I have been enjoying my week off of hyperbaric dives. I have been working around the house and cleaning out closets and the garage. It has felt great to get some things clean!! I cleaned out my closet of all my fat clothes.....and 18 trash bags later....I don't know what in the world I am going to wear this winter!!! It is truly a pleasant problem that I will have fun remedying. To go from a size 20 to a 12 and have the 12's be loose, it's hysterical!! My behind is gone!! I don't remember the last time I had that problem! :) (sigh) I can live without one of those since I have had one the whole first half of my life!! LOL!! Ninety-nine cent Wednesday's at Goodwill are really starting to look good. I only have three pair of jeans that are the right size so I have been checking out Goodwill every week. So far, three dollars for three pair of jeans, not bad!!

Any who...on to bed after enzymes, herbs, vitamins, etc..... I won't stop till they tell me it's all gone! Even then I won't ever be able to go back to the way things were. I've learned too much to go back now. Life is funny isn't it? How things come into our life, how it changes us and we are never the same. I have taken what I've learned out of necessity and seen the value and truth of it, knowing it has gone against everything I have ever learned or been taught. Now I find myself telling others because truth is truth and others need to hear it....sounds like salvation doesn't it? Well, I pray that my scans were positive so that I may continue telling others the "truth". But you know what? It is all in God's hands anyways. If He wants to take me home He can and I will be happy to go. I just pray for the opportunity to continue here for a little while longer, there is so much I want to do for Him. But He does know what's best! And I'm thankful.

Blog # 27

Okay, went to see the evil oncologist on Thursday........and it was quite enjoyable!! My unsupportive husband came with me and it was great! I didn't talk until the very end and it was great to watch him squirm....tee! hee! He went right into wanting me to do chemo but my husband reminded him that he said it really wouldn't help. Then reminded him that he stated that when my ovaries were out it should stop the growth since it was estrogen that was making my cancer grow. He stuttered quite a bit. But my favorite was when he recommended another pill that is a blocker not chemo and my husband said he would like to take that info back to our primary care physician and have him look over it for us then help us decide if that is something we would like to do....there was silence. It was wonderful!!

He actually told us that he knew I wouldn't be dead by next summer he was just trying to scare me!! What in the world?!! Scare me into taking his treatments?! It just made me mad as fire!!! After we got the info on the pill he wants me to take he didn't come back into the room he sent a nurse to let us know all the disclaimers that come with it. There was a whole page of disclaimers and they were identical to when I was on chemo...... hair loss, nausea, fatigue, damage to my nail beds, possible liver damage, heart damage, etc. It was truly a joke. If this just affected my cancer cells it would be fine, but it will affect everything else! How does that help me? It even had in the warnings (and they were three pages long!!!!!) that I had to be careful with what supplements and vitamins that I take because it might counteract the pills. Okay, am I the only one that sees a problem with this?!

Needless to say, my husband and I will not be pursuing this means of treatment, but we did get him to admit that I should be having scans quite frequently and he should have already set one up for me since I got out of the hospital. I am excited about that! I don't have my ovaries in so everything I have been doing should really have been making a difference. I will let everyone know as soon as I know when the scans will be.

Even though he was changing his tune in front of my husband, I still don't like the guy. He really acts like he can bully me and then explain it off because he was trying to help. That is soooo wrong!!!

On the positive side.....I am feeling great!!! I don't have pain anywhere except for my neck and it is very minimal. Only when I turn to far and I am able to turn my head really well without much pain at all!! I don't have bone pain, just muscle and I am starting to wonder if it is more due to radiation than the tumor. Before radiation it was very painful in the muscle and bone, now it is no bone, and very little muscle.

God is sooooooooo Good!! Until later!!

Blog # 26

I am starting to believe that my oncologist wants me to die! He got irate with me and told me if I didn't take his chemo pills that I would be dead in six months!! Then he told me that my husband didn't support me and that he didn't even care enough to call him back! It made for a very irritating day to say the least! Who does he think he is to plant that thought in my mind? He has no clue what I do everyday to survive this cancer!!!!!! Then he had the unmitigated gall to call me after I left to recommend another pill I could take, not CHEMO, that should do just as well. Hmmmmmmm.......let me seee....... if I don't take the chemo pills I will die, but there is this other pill that should work pretty well!! Sounds like a cheesy used car salesman trick to me!! Take this or die!! Oh, by the way, something else might work......It made for a rough day. One of my dearest friends said, "let's show him what support really is!! Let's all go in on your next visit!! There won't be enough room for all of your support, husband included!!" Amen to that, sister!!

But I am thankful that I went to dive after that horrible visit! I got to the clinic and told my N.D.'s (natural doctor's) what had happened and they prayed over me. I was so thankful that I was there with doctors that love me and care about me and love God. There really aren't words to describe how that made me feel. I just realize that I want to tell people about them and support them as much as I can! Maybe the Lord will allow me to share with others as much as I can to bring in people who need them. I pray I can.

On the flip side a long time friend is coming in to visit this weekend and I can't wait to see her!! I have known her for 25yrs and it will be sooooo good to see her and not think about all this mental stress!! Definitely makes for a good weekend! Ahhhhh!

I guess I'll go take my herbs, vitamins, ozone, etc.....then go to bed. LOL!!

Blog # 25

Do you ever feel like every where you look that the devil is trying to get in and mess things up? That is totally how I feel today and it is driving me crazy!!! My neck is hurting and I can't tell if it is just from transition or if it is bad, I am tired with toooo much mental stress, Ben is tired from three different sides and my kids are even tired. Talk about feeling beaten down!! We have a lot going on right now and it makes it hard to "concentrate on getting better" which is what everyone is telling me to do. Can they do it? That is all I want to know! They say this like it is the most easy thing in the world to do.....but if they were sitting in my shoes, they would see that it is not. Some days it is almost an audible reminder that I need..." I am fighting CANCER!!! And don't you forget it!!!!!"

I need to go to bed I am too tired and I might not make sense.... Goodnight everyone, I need some sleep :)

Blog #24

I am getting into a routine but it doesn't make it any easier. I get up everyday at 6am to start my day. It takes two hours to do everything I need to do before I leave at 8am for my dives. It is starting to make me very tired. I am painfully aware when I am up past 9pm. LOL!! That is so funny and for those that know me, that is just not me!! I am sooooo a night owl! I would much rather be up late than get up early!! But it is what it is..... I seem to be saying that a lot lately. I guess it is true. My naturalists seem to feel that I will see some substantial improvements since my ovaries have been taken out. I believe them. I am amazed at how I feel and how well I can move my neck since I have left the hospital and been able to start back on my treatments.

I still have pain in my neck but it is different than before and it changes. I am assuming that it is because of how the tumor is dissolving and how it effects the bone and nerves. Some days I am just doing too much and am tired but other days it just feels weird. I have lost faith in my oncologist and I am starting to feel like he doesn't have my best interests at heart. Of course I can't know for sure, but some things that have happened have really caused me to wonder. I go back to see him next week and he is still pushing chemo pills. Even though he said there is no guarantee that it will help but it can do damage. I just don't want chemo, and he just won't listen. I am afraid I am going to have to get firm, i'm not looking forward to it. Time to pray some more.

My brother's wife had their baby girl this week and I am so thankful that I was here to see her. I am not ready to die and I am thankful that the Lord has shown me a way to take care of myself so I can be here to see my niece grow up!

Ok, laugh with me on this! I went to Whole Foods today on my free time between dives and while I was checking out with my lunch I ran and picked up a bottle of some gum that I can chew. It is totally vegan and natural so I was excited to find it. No artificial anything! Well I start to walk away after paying and realized that my and my kids lunch was expensive....so I looked at the receipt. Well guess how much my gum was!?........... $11.99!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I almost fell over!! My daughter and son almost fell over laughing! I almost passed out in shock!! That's it...I said! You guys can't share my gum, it is toooo darn expensive!! Can you believe it? I couldn't either!!

Until next time.....I'm chewing my gum!!

Blog #23

I am just amazed at how God is slowly healing me. And I truly believe that is what is going on! I am able to get up now without holding my head with my hand, I can lay on either side now, I can look straight up and straight down, and pretty far left to right. I am just amazed and overwhelmed! I slowly am getting better every day and I can see it happening. How incredible is that? And now my energy is growing and so is my strength....God is sooo good!!

I have been able to fully get back into my routine and now I am doing two dives a day. It has been hard on my schedule but it has been worth it. I think I will be able to drive myself soon and that would be so awesome! We just keep seeing things that God is doing and it is leaving me speechless. My sister is inviting my naturalists down to have a seminar at her church and then a Sunday morning service. They are so excited! I don't blame them! I am hoping that the Lord will make it possible for me to go down with them, that would be so awesome to see my sister's home and church and meet everyone who has been praying for me. And her church is so excited to have them come down! How cool!! I am meeting a couple from their church on Monday. The wife has cancer and is starting treatments. It is exciting!! God is good, all the time!!

Blog #22

I have been really emotionally tired for the last month and a half. It has been hard to be in the hospital eating what I don't need to eat and drinking what I know is bad for me. Even the pain meds were hard to take because I know how they affect my body. Then just when I start to feel better I get a sinus infection. (which means no dives till it's done) Then I get my ovaries out and have a body full of gas that can't go in a chamber till it is out of my body and not causing me pain. So this week I am finally back to my full regime. It feels like my muscles have atrophied down to jello and I am stupidly weak!! Try not to get discouraged? Well, on top of that I feel like I am keeping my children from living their lives and I don't want them to grow bitter with me or resentful. My husband has the church on his shoulders, his family and me.....he tries not to let me see his stress, but I know him.....and I try not to let him see my stress, but he knows me! Vicious circles! And I know the devil is trying to fan the flames as much as possible!

My middle son got a job, my youngest is in high school, and my daughter is my personal driver and assistant. I don't know what I would do without any of them, they all help in one way or another. I know my Father is with me, I can feel His presence and I know every tear I cry He knows and holds in His hands. I find that I need Him more everyday and I know He wants to go through this with me, and for me not to carry it alone. How do I thank Him? I hope I can live in a way that honors Him, but even if He calls me home, I will still love Him!!

I read "The Shack" last Tuesday. My brother called and asked me to read it. I know I am behind the times....that seems to be how I do things. I don't really follow the crowd, ever....so I am behind in reading this book. But, I truly loved it!! I have never read a book that shows the love of God so thoroughly!!!! Maybe others will read it and draw closer to Him and figure out that He loves them too. I hope so!

So now I am back in my full routine of vitamins, herbs, enzymes, veggie juicing, hyperbaric dives, and coffee enemas. I am tired but getting stronger. We seem to get what we need when we need it and no sooner. But God always provides!! He is sooo good to me! I just pray for strength, and plenty of it!! It is His strength that I need because mine is truly not good enough!! And I truly hope people are praying for my husband! He truly carries more than he should.

Blog # 20

I had such a good visit with my sisters when they brought my mom up to see me. And I truly believe God brought us together for a reason. They went with me to do my treatments and we had such a good time and truly they scales fell from their eyes on what we put into our bodies and how it affects us. It was wonderful to just let my naturalist doctors talk and hear all that they know and how God has worked out their ministries and healed so many people. It lit a fire under my sisters and they went home and want to change and let others know they need to change as well. It's kind of funny to watch it affect others they way it affected me. I understand and it makes me excited all over again.

But on my end, I am getting ready for surgery tomorrow and I am having to drink a gallon of Golytely and it is truly not of God!! That is the most horrible stuff and I feel for anyone that has had to endure that!! But I will truly be empty by tomorrow!! Ugh!!

I am trying not to get irritated with some of the things that has happened with my doctor, but it is difficult. I went in today and he was out of town. And his replacement asked why i was there and I said I didn't know, I already knew what the bone scan said, and my surgery isn't till tomorrow. And he said, you haven't even had surgery yet, and I said, no. He said, I'm sorry for making you wait, you don't need to be here. I will tell the receptionist not to charge you and we'll schedule you for about 6weeks from now. I'm so sorry.

How irritating!! I wasted two hours for nothing! It was very frustrating! To say the least. But what do you do? I am at there mercy..... not any more!! I am so thankful that I am going to be starting some different treatments after I have my surgery. And I totally believe that when I go back in six weeks I will be cancer Free!!!!!

Blog # 19

I am totally blown away at how God takes care of details! I shouldn't be!! He truly is a Master of details it is just hard to imagine that He does all this for me. And I guess if there is anything that I could share that truly should be shared is that He will do the same for you as well!!

When I arrived at the hospital they couldn't tell exactly what the tumor was doing. If it was in the bone, beside it, eating through it, or what. So for the first two days we heard so much good news and bad news it was hard to hold on emotionally. We did cry a lot because it would go from "we'll be able to take care of this" to "you may not make it through this". When they finally got through a 3hr long MRI and could tell exactly what was going on in there we found out that I wasn't going to need re-constructive surgery and that radiation would be all that was required. But, it just happened to require very precise radiation and they just happened to have the machine that I needed there at ST. Thomas. (There were only two in Nashville...the other was at Vandy) Then they shared that the tumor wasn't growing into the spinal column but around it (which is unheard of because tumors want to grow into the blood flow not away or around it) and it wasn't restricting any blood vessels. Also incredible!!! Because it was growing around the vertebrae there was no structural damage to the bone and that was there biggest concern because reconstruction of the C1-C2 vertebrae is so risky they want to do anything else they can before they try that.

Well when they were ordering my MRI, my oncologist on call came running back into the room to share that the neurosurgeon specialist for the area was on my floor and she had just ran into him and he said he would look at my films when they came out. She was so excited that he was there because he was the best in the area!! How awesome of God to have him waiting outside my door!!

So, I now know that I can radiate this horrible thing and I don't have to have reconstruction. They took me down to radiation and explained that it would require only one very concentrated dose of radiation and it would slowly break down the tumor over a period of two months. How incredible is that? They also learned through all the other scans that none of the other spots have grown and if we took care of this one tumor it would eliminate the immediate threat to my life. Again, wow!! God is Sooooooooooo AWESOME!!

The only downside to my visit was that several doctors asked me why I hadn't done anything yet with my ovaries. Apparently I really need them removed and all the estrogen they are producing even with the hormone inhibitors I am taking. That alarmed me a little. I asked as soon as a started again about that and I didn't get any concern showed at all. But as soon as I get into the hospital every doctor I saw said it would stop the growth immediately if I had them removed!! Needless to say I am scheduled to have them removed on the 3rd of September.

I am being very calm relating these events to you all now, but it was not the case as it happened. It is so good to be home and doing what I can to fight this cancer the way that I know will work! Every one of the doctors recommended Chemo and every one of them said there was no guarantee it would help, but it would eventually kill me. Then what is the point? They all said that taking my ovaries out would stop the growth immediately, yay! So let's just start with that and let me get back to my oxygen treatments and all natural remedies. I know they work! I have seen it work!! And you know what? I totally believe that it is what has kept all the rest of my spots at bay. And I truly believe that the tumor at the base of my skull grew because of the estrogen in my body. How like the Father to take care of that for me and let me know what I needed to do to stop the growth so I can kill the rest of this horrible stuff in my body!!

Yeah, it is really good to be home! :)

Blog # 18

It has been hard to sit at the computer and type so it has taken me a while to be able to blog. But, I am feeling so good today, and I'm sure I will be feeling this good and better from now on, that blogging can be back in my routine once again. It's nice to be able to let everyone know what's been going on and how to pray.

I gave a brief description of what happened and how I ended up in the hospital. So I just wanted to let you know what's happened since then. The hospital stay was long and very difficult. I hurt beyond description when I would sit up or stand so they kept me on strong pain meds during the first half of the week. Every test and scan I would have to slide from bed to bed and using the bathroom was extremely painful. But after the radiation it slowly started to reduce the pain. After two days I could walk to the bathroom and sit in the shower! I can't tell you how wonderful that was!! By the time I hit one week of being in the hospital (2 1/2 days after radiation) I could roll over on my side without crying! I was crying from sheer joy at that point and thanking God for His incredible provision!! By Monday I knew I was going home and I couldn't stop smiling or thanking God. It felt like I was released from prison!

Being at home was a little harder than expected. I had a hard time getting in and out of bed and the pain meds kept me pretty loopy and nauseous. So a week of readjusting and I was starting to get back into a routine of healthy food and vitamins and herbs. Literally my body started to detox again. It wasn't pleasant. But after two hyperbaric dives I feel soooo much better, I can't wait to see what I am going to feel like on Friday!!

I am going to sign off and fill you in more later. I just wanted to fill in some gaps. On my next blog we will discuss what's going on inside of me. :)

Blog : # 17

My trip to the emergency room. I just wanted to give an account of what happened to me this past week. My brother and family came to visit this past week and we were having so much fun!! With games, late nights and then a trip to the creek. We had a blast as you can see from the pics my brother and niece put on facebook. But, by the time I got home I was in some serious pain. I was assuming that I just dislocated a vertebrae or pulled a muscle. So I was icing and heating and taking pain pills, but to now avail. By the time my brother left Friday morning I was bed ridden. I was hoping there would be some improvement by Saturday, but there wasn't so I called the hospital and told them I was headed in. I got up to take a shower and the pain was more than I could handle. I felt the fading coming over and screamed for Patsy. She came running in and was able to catch me as my knees buckled under me. She called my husband and he was there within six minutes.

Weird things happen when you have something like that happen. I had Patsy cover me with towels and had her call the boys in so I could tell them that I loved them. It was right scary to not know exactly what was going on and it dealing with my neck scared the phooey out of me.

Needless to say, Ben got home and helped me get dressed and to the van and off to the hospital we went. It was very painful but the drugged me up when I got there and soon transferred me to Saint Thomas. From there it was test after test after test. One MRI was three hours long!! Talk about pain! But the end results were worth it.

My tumor isn't restricting the blood vessels, it hasn't degraded the vertebrae and they will be able to radiate it and give me relief so I can go home. As soon as I get out of the hospital I will be doing a full detox and going in overdrive with oxygen therapy. I can't wait to get back on shcedule!!

I will try to update again as soon as possible!!

Blog : #16

Our youth group is having a car wash tomorrow at Rite Aid to help raise money for medical bills. I am just amazed at how the Lord has taken care of our needs! I shouldn't be, He is so faithful! Every time we start to wonder how we are going to make it another check shows up in the mail. I can see the Lord rearranging my life and it's kind of weird, like watching a play. I got home yesterday after treatments and just sat in the driveway talking to Patsy and thinking... I don't know what the Lord is doing or why, but I can feel things changing. I feel very unworthy of even the help that people offer. Who am I? I'm just some average "Joe" who is fighting cancer and there are so many others who are as well. I find myself wanting to do all I can to tell others about what I am doing and allow God to use me anyway He wants. It feels like I'm coming out of hibernation and wiping the sleep from my eyes and starting to focus and what I am focusing on is so different from what I have ever seen before. Kind of like salvation. It makes you look at things very differently and react and act differently as well. I hope I am making sense, because this is hard to put into words.

It has also given me a burden for my doctors and their ministry. They love God so much and because of their love for God they love their patients whole heartedly. It is just incredible to watch these people come through their doors and the devotion they feel towards them is unstoppable! They feel gratitude that my doctors were willing to do whatever they could to heal them. Not just treat symptoms but heal them!! They have gone so above and beyond with me it blows my mind! One of them said this past week..."Robin, I know this is expensive for you right now, just keep track of what you owe us and pay it as you can." They weren't even worried, they just knew they were supposed to treat me and God would make a way. If they told me that once they told me 20 times. How can you not feel love and appreciation for someone who is willing to do that? I pray all the time that the Lord will bless their ministry and keep them financially stable so they will never have to close their doors.

Needless to say, it has changed my circle of friends as well. I am getting to know so many new people because of this. But, it is all in God's hands. How comforting!! Come what may, I'll continue to be thankful!

Well, I am off of hyperbaric's for a week and my brother and family is coming for a visit. I will still be going up on Monday because a friend of mine has an aunt who is coming up from NC to start treatments and she is a little nervous. It will be a good week. I also have a teen from Missouri coming in to visit as well! I'm so excited!!!!!

Blog : #15

I am a little weepy today. My neck is a constant reminder of what I am doing and why. Then I get cards and sometimes with checks inside and I feel unworthy. I couldn't get through this without others help and God knows exactly what we need when we need it and He provides!! It all seems so incredible sometimes! I started on two more different types of pills today and got two checks in the mail for the exact amount of the pills. Only God can do that!! It is special enzymes that won't stay in my stomach but go straight to my blood stream and a special pro biotic. If it wasn't for my neck I would feel like a million bucks! But I can't complain, I've seen so many people who are much worse off than me.

I met a lady on Monday whose vertebrae is ate up with cancer and the doctor's told her she needed to call in hospice. She came to see my naturalists and we talked for about 45min. She said she wasn't done fighting yet and she wanted to live. We stood and cried together...then I get there Tuesday morning and find out she just didn't want to change her eating habits so she wasn't going to come for treatments!!! What are we coming to if we let our love of food keep us from LIVING?!! I know where I am going when the Lord takes me home, but if He will let me stay longer and be here for my kids and my husband and my ministry....then I would like to stay a little longer!! I was having a hard time wrapping my brain around it. I'm thinking she may have just been tired and just couldn't fight anymore. Funny, I look into the faces of those around me and it stirs the fire in me and makes ignoring the pain so easy. If God wants me to fight and do all I can, then I will fight...And Do All I Can!!

On to happier things! My husband's cousin is organizing a benefit in my honor to help pay for my treatments. (Thank the Lord and He gets all the credit!!) It will be in about three weeks, so if you could just mention that in your prayers.... whoever is reading this, that would be wonderful!! Thanks!!

Blog : #14

I had a good week and I am so tired!! I have one more week of hyperbaric treatments before I can have a break. That will be 40 treatments!! WOW!! Time sure does fly by!! It never ceases to amaze me how I will reach a point of not knowing how to pay for my next weeks treatments and the Lord just surprises me! Two months of treatments and so many other things and we have been able to stay above water! We are coming up on some new treatments that I need to start and I know the Lord will help us with them as well.

One of them is my enzyme treatments. I will be taking enzymes very aggressively over the next couple of months because they will go straight to the cancer and attack the cell walls. Yay!! That is just what I want to hear!

Oh, by the way, I was talking to my naturalists and they have been helping me with my neck and Friday one of them gave me some acupuncture therapy. It gave me instant relief! It was actually quite incredible. Then he used pressure points as well, I was just amazed at how well it gave me relief!! As I was lying on the table he prayed for me and my healing. Where do you ever run across doctors like that?!!! It was very encouraging!! I find myself praying that the Lord will continue to bless their ministry. So many people need them.

Speaking of needing them, a friend has an aunt who was diagnosed with breast cancer and she is going to start seeing my doctors a week from Monday. Say some prayers for her, she will be renting a duplex from month to month for as long as she needs to be in the area. It won't be easy for her. I'm going to do whatever I can to help her out. :)

Well, I have one more week and then a break! ahhhh! Can't wait!!

Blog : #13

I have had a long week this week. My neck has been hurting so bad and my doctors told me to rub it down with ice and I can't believe how much it helped! But after doing a bunch of searching on line and going over my review of my last scan, I believe it is the cancer in my vertebrae that is causing the discomfort. It is funny how I can go through all the right steps and know I am doing the right thing and the devil tries to step in and crush my hope. I'm thankful I know the God of this world who thinks cancer is such a small thing!! I am very ready to be past this point but I know it could take some time because it is in my bones. Patience isn't quite so easy when it takes months.....but at least this time I feel really, really good. LOL! I'm not full of chemicals that make me feel horrible and even smell bad, but full of veggies and vitamins and oxygen that give me energy and strength!! Thank the Lord!!

Blog : #12

I love hearing good news when I go see my naturalists. They are so encouraging and they make me laugh! I am so thankful that they have such a love for God. It just pours out of them!! I was talking with them last week and they wanted me to share what was going on with me to a gentleman who just arrived to do his hyperbaric dive. So I shared what all was going on with me then he shared his testimony! Wow!! It was awesome!! He had had a stroke and lost all of his vision in his left eye and couldn't walk without assistance. He was walking fine and had his vision completely restored!! How awesome is that?! Oxygen therapy is just incredible!!

Another gentleman had colon cancer and he has been doing exactly my same regimen for three months and went in last Friday and the doctor couldn't find any cancer anywhere! God is so awesome! It is just incredible to me to see so many people walk through their doors and receive healing and everyone there knows that it is God who has done the healing!! I am very thankful that God has brought these two brothers into my life. They have been a tremendous blessing!!

Blog : #11

Hey, I haven't posted since Sunday, and it has been a crazy week. But, you learn something new every day, as the old saying goes.... I have been testing my pH everyday to make sure it is not acidic and I can't get higher than 7.0 so I talked to my doctors about it and they told me to use cider vinegar. And not just any cider vinegar but the brand name "Bragg's" organic apple cider vinegar with "the Mother". Now if you are like me I was like..."what is that?!" But okay, I will get it and take two tablespoon's worth three or four times a day so I can raise my alkalinity. It is cheap and easy to use and is good for so much more than just alkalinity that I am pretty excited about using it but I still had no clue what "the Mother" was until my mother-in-law arrived and had to explain. Then I rolled with laughter! It is when the vinegar gets cloudy and looks like it has stuff floating in it. LOL!! That's what they called it when she was growing up and they always threw it out when that happened because they thought it had gone bad! I learn something new everyday!! LOL!! Okay, this is what it says on the bottle which makes perfect sense as to why it would help with alkalinity and even fighting cancer and other things.

"Raw Apple Cider Vinegar is full of zesty natural goodness and contains the amazing "mother" of vinegar which occurs naturally as connected strand-like chains of protein enzyme molecules and is highly regarded throughout history. Many medical studies show the health benefits of Apple Cider Vinegar. In 400 BC Hippocrates, the Father of Medicine, used it for its amazing natural cleansing, healing, and energizing health qualities."

Pretty amazing huh?! The enzymes are what fight the cancer cells, need I say more? So after my doctors introduced me to Bragg's I have been using it this week three to four times a day. I get a half glass of green tea and add some Stevia then two tablespoons of vinegar. On the bottle it even recommends adding a sweetener to help with the sour taste. But it only lists natural sweeteners like honey, molasses and....Stevia! You know I was happy! That's what I use and it is the one sweetener that my naturalists said to use.

My only negative has been stress, that I thought I wasn't feeling, but my neck is revealing the truth. It has been hurting since I found out and my doctor told me today that I have to relax and not worry so my neck muscles will relax. Well, that is so much easier said than done! But, I will try harder..... to relax! LOL!!

Blog : #10

Hey, I have been researching B-17 or Laetrile and it is incredible! I took some on Friday and it really made me tired but I have studied and discovered that it will kill cancer and they have banned it in the states. My husband came home with a book that one of his customers shared with him after they found out that I have cancer in my bones and that I am having to fight it naturally because there is nothing else they can do for me. It is a book that will enlighten you and make you fighting mad! I want to scream from the rooftops that this country doesn't want to cure you of cancer because they make too much money from it!! What have we come to that we would rather be rich than alive?! Where is human compassion?! The book is entitled "Cancer, Step Outside the Box" by Ty Bollinger. If you would like to order the book you can go to www.cancertruth.net. I highly recommend it for anyone who is going through cancer or if you know someone who is.... We are living in an ignorant society and happy to be so. It is time we educated ourselves and stopped letting others determine our wellbeing!!

I have been studying liquid oxygen and what I keep coming back to is food grade hydrogen peroxide. It seems to have all the right qualities and not all the propaganda that goes with all the other brands of liquid oxygen. Not that i'm saying they won't work, but why pay for a name when you can get something that will do the same thing for less?

I know I am a little fired up, but at the heart of almost every disease seems to be a lack of oxygen in the cell. Listen to a quote from the book I mentioned above....

"Once the body (specifically the liver, gallbladder, kidneys, and bowels) loses its ability to process all the toxins and pollutants we are bombarded with every day, the body's oxygen supply dwindles, the immune systems begin to collapse, the body's pH becomes more and more acidic (i.e. acidosis) , and we have the perfect breeding ground for deadly microbes and parasites. These microbes are the end result when our body's immune system has lost the ability to protect its cells from carcinogens. These viruses, bacteria, parasites, and fungi act as the actual catalyst for cancer and nearly all other diseases. By "hijacking" a healthy aerobic cell, these bacterium and virus invaders start exhausting the cell's oxygen and energy supply, until the cell either dies or mutates into an anaerobic cell. This anaerobic cell (i.e. cancer cell) now relies on fermenting sugar to produce energy." pg. 194

Does this not just give you chills?? Why won't the medical community share this knowledge with us and help us to fight the disease not the symptom? Not one time did my four doctors tell me to take sugar out of my diet! I needed oxygen and alkalinity and they treated the symptom not the source. I hope others will listen, I pray they will. Maybe someone will realize that sometimes our doctors don't have our best interests at heart whether intentional or not. We need to be educated. And we need it now!

Blog : #9

Ok, I need to share some humor today and I know it is of a sensitive nature, but please laugh with me!

I have gone through the whole gambit with this breast cancer and today I have had my last "procedure". I had to go to Nashville early this morning to get my tattoos. Now let me explain. Since having chemo, a bilateral mastectomy, reconstructive surgery, radiation, more reconstructive surgery, and finally nipple reconstruction I have reached my final step to looking completely normal again. Tattoos. That is tattoos on my skin where nipples should be to make it look like normal.

Because of the sensitive nature of this procedure I thought it a good idea to talk to one of the technicians at the clinic before I did my hyperbaric dive. Since it is ink and A&D ointment on my skin and the chamber forces oxygen into your body, I didn't want to do anything that could harm me. So....I gave one of the tech's a call. I told him briefly of the situation and explained that I had just acquired two "tattoos" and if I would be okay to take a dive. He said he would check it out and see what was in the ointment before I got there.

Well, I arrived and he wasn't there yet so I took my time, procrastinated....then could wait no longer and went to the other tech and started to get into a chamber. I truly believed I wouldn't have to share my sensitive situation with anyone else, when low and behold I received a phone call that my daughter ran in to tell me the tech had said to wait till he could talk to me. Well he called the other tech's phone and told him to hold up on me getting in then asked to talk to me. So, trying to be discreet I walked out of the room and answered his questions....how big are the tattoos? do you have gauze covering them? not much A&D ointment? etc....

So, I walk back over to the tech and hand his phone back and go to get into the chamber and tell him I can go ahead and start. He just looks at me.....waiting......(here it comes...)" Is everything ok?"

Well, now I have to explain. (I didn't want to go here just because of the awkwardness of it all!!) So in trying to explain, and I'm thinking it is obvious, he says, "oh, you got tattoos?"

I reply, "Yes, I needed them to complete my whole process of reconstruction." (This should explain everything)

Tech: "So where did you get them?"

Me: "Ummm, after my reconstruction, I needed them to look normal again." (ok, now he get's it!)

Tech: "So where did you get them?"

Me: (AHHHHHH!) (tapping chest) "I needed them to look normal after surgery...."

Tech: OHHH! uhh, ok, yeah, I have uh,, I understand.

Me: (Yes! Finally, now I can dive and not have to face this anymore!!)

One hour and fifteen minutes later.....

My other tech has arrived (the one I called discreetly) and he helps me out. And as I'm climbing out he says with a smile, "So, where'd you get them?"

Me: (ok, He didn't get it!) "Umm, after my surgery and reconstruction I needed tattoos to complete the appearance."

2nd tech: "so where did you get them?"

Me: (okay, this is crazy!!) (tapping chest again...) "I needed tattoos to look normal after recontruction"

2nd tech: "Ohhhhh! (flush) Okay!"

Me: (ok, i'm out and no more questions!) Yeah, it's been a long year and I'm glad that I'm done with all of that."

Dr. #1 : "Hey girl, where are those tattoos?" (the two techs "no, no...you don't want to ask about them")

Me: (okay, I'm done with subtle!) "Uh, they are for me to look normal..

Dr. #1: (interjecting) Where are they? (laughing)

(the other to techs are raising their voices, "no, you don't want to know!"

Me: (Grrrr!) My breasts. So I will look normal after surgery.

Dr. #1: Oh!!!! I forgot, okay, okay, uh....

Dr. #2: (walks in smiling) Let me see those tattoos girl!"

(All the guys yelling...."NO")

Me: " I got nipples tattooed on me so I can look normal after my bilateral mastectomy.

Dr#2: (eyes bug out) Oh, um sorry, uh, yeah, that's right, that's right.

Subject change!! Me: So my dive went well and I am feeling good...

They were never so happy to change the subject!! Lol!!

Can someone laugh with me!!!???

On the flip side, that was my last step to complete my year of terror! Yay!!!!!

Blog : #8

You know, I have a hard time with people I know struggling with cancer after everything I have been through. I just want to shout to people that they need to listen and change their lives!! We truly are what we eat!! All this food goes into our bodies and it is so processed that there isn't much left that is even beneficial to us. But how can we stop when it is so convenient to run through a drive through or put in a frozen pizza? I guess it doesn't hit us or enter our reality until a doctor says..."you have cancer". That's when our world stops and we decide to do whatever it takes to live. Can't we get to the point where we don't want to hear those words? I have a friend in VA that they put back on chemo pills and it is so hard to hear. I want so much to force her to take oxygen and veggies and herbs and not go through that pain again. But if they don't want to, what do i do? Okay, moving on....I am looking into liquid oxygen. I have heard so much about it and the positive effects that may even speed up my recovery, I am getting excited. I will let everyone know how it goes. :) I have had very positive effects from hyperbaric treatments, I think liquid oxygen will be awesome!!

Blog : #7

This is a little personal but incredible at the same time. After going through some serious chemotherapy for 5months, my ovaries shut down about half way through. The doctor said that they might not start up again. So 4wks ago he ran some tests (after being shut down for 15 mos) and told me I was post-menopausal. But.....on Thursday morning.... my cycles started again! What? I thought I was POST-menopausal?! I guess I must be doing something right for my ovaries to be rejuvenated!! What a God thing!!! I am pumping oxygen and veggies into my body at an absurd rate and it's like God is letting me know that I am doing the right thing. How incredible!! Of course on the flip side I would have been happy to never have it back, but my body is healing so I am very happy!! :)

It was a long day today, but it seems that I am continuing to feel better and lose weight. That's a great positive, but now I'm starting to worry about clothes that fit. So, everyday, I get up and start the routine of making myself healthy. It can get tedious to remember everything that I need to do everyday, but I know it is exactly what I need to do to live. That makes the choice rather simple.

Juicing, herbs, vitamins, coffee enemas, oxygen treatments, ph strips, ph water only, and then for oxygen treatments no make-up, lotion, hair spray, jewelry, or metal. Then come home and add a little color back to my face so I can wash it off a couple of hours later, after I make some organic coffee for the next day. If I could have some other purpose other than trying to live...and I don't mean that glibly, it would give me something else to focus on. I am the type of person that normally stays very busy, and now all my focus is on me and very tedious things. It can get discouraging. That sounds silly doesn't it? I don't mean it to, I would just like to focus my energy on something instead of me. I have enjoyed great times alone with God and I find myself thanking Him for even allowing me the opportunity to go through this but it is hard not to feel a little restless. I am trying to share with anyone who will listen to my testimony all that I have learned, but I wish I had something more constructive to do.

My life has been so turned upside down. I am looking forward to everything going back to normal as soon as they tell me my cancer is gone!! Yeah, that's what I am looking forward to. :)

Blog : #6

Today was a long day, and sometimes I feel like it is all starting to run together. I have to stop and remind myself that I am doing this to survive this nasty disease called cancer!! Sometimes I want to be like Thor Ramsey and say "Eat a twinkie....see God!" It would be a sweet way to go, of course pun intended!! LOL!! But back to the healthy side of life.

I got on Swanson's website this morning and found some Himalayan salt that I can have!! It isn't processed and when digested creates an alkaline base instead of acidic. It is actually good for you!! What good news for those of us who can't do salt for what ever reason. Swanson's is a great resource for pursuing healthy remedies and they always have good sales. They have Kyo-Green that I need for my juicing recipe and flaxseed oil as well. I have heard about a daily supplement that is supposed to be great for the immune system. I am going to research it and tell you what I find. If it works like I have heard, it will be incredible and great for making your immune system recognize cancer cells and kill them. That sounds good to me!

Blog : #5

I had a great visit today with several people I have never met before. One of the ladies, Crystal, was in the exact situation I am in right now. Actually hers was worse than mine and she sought out for herself some "self" remedies. We realized that I am doing what she discovered worked for her. And she is cancer free!! How awesome is that!! Just another confirmation that I am doing the right thing.

In the midst of our conversation we were talking about all that we went through and the steps of the process and it brought something up that I wanted to share. I am increasingly irritated with the MD process that they put you through when it is discovered that someone has cancer. As soon as something is found they want to biopsy, x-ray, MRI, etc.... This only makes it worse!! Cancer has a membrane around the mass and when you biopsy it you literally "let it out" and it will spread because of it. And mammograms, MRI, etc. is radiating it!! Yeah, let's make it grow really fast!! But we as the normal, ignorant populace just follows along because they are the ones with degrees not us. It is a crazy catch 22!! And I fell into it as well!! I had a biopsy, mammogram, MRI, PET scan (where they inject radioactive fluid straight into my veins and they warn you not to be around babies for 6hrs!!!)....how can that be good for you?! I have done that several times since my whole experience started!!

Okay, I am off my soap box. I just feel so frustrated that we aren't told what is really going on!!

But, on a happier note, it gets easier every day to be around my, used to be, favorite foods. Kind of like a recovering alcoholic. I know I can't go back or it will be destruction and death. It definitely makes the decision a whole lot easier!! :)

Blog : #4

I feel like I need to clarify about how much my treatments are and what my doctors are like. My naturalist doctors are twin brothers that run a clinic out of their fellowship hall at their church. They both have their degrees and have been in high demand else where but feel the Lord wants them here helping as many misinformed patients as possible. They have hearts as big as Texas and will love you to death and pray for you every single day. They give till it hurts because they love to help those in need and they feel God has given them the knowledge to do just that. They normally charge $100.00 per hyperbaric dive but they knew me circumstances and only charged me half price. They are also eating the price of my herbal perscription because of our financial situation. They give to so many because they have needs, they want to live and they want to help them live. I find myself praying that the Lord will bless their ministry because there are so many in need!!

They have a younger brother who developed Lymphoma and his liver was covered with tumors. He chose to follow his brothers direction and treatments and the cancer has been gone for 7yrs. I feel stronger than ever that I am doing what God wants me to do, and I hope I can encourage others to see them as well and change the lifestyle that is slowly eating them alive.

On to other subjects, I had some friends come in this weekend to see us and it was so good to see them!! We have known them for twenty years and it felt like a homecoming or family reunion!! God has blessed them and they have blessed us!! Sometimes the joy comes in showers and other times in floods!! They took us to a mexican restaurant for lunch and I had a guacamole salad for lunch, no cheese just lettuce, tomatoes, and guacamole. It was heavenly!! After just veggie juice and lentils for three weeks!!

Brenda, Matt, Sissy and Alissa.....I pray the Lord will bless you as you have blessed me!!! Love you guys!!

Blog : #3

I have been going to three weeks of hyperbaric treatment.... I am feeling really great!! And yes, I am also doing coffee enema's. They will clean out the liver and keep it in tip top condition so the cancer will not settle there. I had never even heard of such a thing but my naturalists gave me info on them and had me order coffee from Canada expressly for that purpose. I have had friends taking me for my treatments so I have enjoyed the conversations but it is nice as well for them to see where I am going and to know what all I am learning.

Food: I forgot to mention breads yesterday. They turn to sugar in your system but if you are eating store bought bread, the nutrients are gone by the time you get them. If you can grind your own wheat then immediately make the bread you will receive all the nutrients. As for the flour you buy, there are no nutrients left. It needs to be freshly ground. The Health Master can be used as a mill as well to grind your wheat to flour. Very cool!

I found a website yesterday that talked about the ph of food. It said that people assume that citrus fruit is acidic. But it actually causes alkaline to be produced in your stomach. Very good news for when I can have fruit back in my diet. I love orange juice!! One of the highest acid producers is lobster and scallops... :( that makes me very sad!!

Oh, Good News!!! I talked to my oncologist and asked if he would monitor my blood tests to see if what I am doing is helping and he said he would and that I can get tested every three months. That is a huge answer to prayer!! He was really determined to have me do chemo again. I told him yesterday that I didn't want to do chemo and wanted to pursue all natural remedies and he said he would do what ever I wanted and would support my decision!! That is just incredible!! So, in ten weeks I go in for a ct scan and bone scan. I can't wait to see what they find...or what they don't find!! :)

Thank-you all for the comments and support!! I will try to add to this every day. At least so you will know what is going on in my life and what I am facing.

I don't think I have shared the financial side of this just some large figures. I have to drive one hour to the clinic five days a week and it is $50.00 a day. We have already purchased one piece of equipment which was $2500.00. The doctors are discussing different treatments that they may pursue, and I am looking at continuing the hyperbarics for months. I know I am in for a large financial adventure but I have had some friends and family volunteer to help raise money.

I am trying to find a job as well to see if I can help make ends meet that way as well. I'm not sure how any of this will work out but I know that I am pursuing the right direction and I know God will provide a way. "I feel it in my bones" LOL!!

Blog : #2

Here is the Recipe :)

Daily Recipe

Drink Seperately if prefered:

32 0z. carrot

16 oz. apple

4 oz. beet

Combine:

8 oz. romaine lettuce

16 oz. celery

8 oz. red pepper

2 cups of tomato (I purchase knudsen organit tomato juice form Wild Oats)

1/4 t cayenne pepper

This is a very tasty combination. It tastes like Spicy V8 Juice

Also recommended daily:

3T of Barley Green (AIM brand preferred)

3T of Organic Cold Pressed Flax Seed Oil

several other supplements

Blog : #1

I must say that starting a blog was not something I had considered, but the more I learn the more I felt the need to share. I am overwhelmed by the vast amount of knowledge that is out there on how to fight cancer and how to prevent cancer.

So, I guess I need to start with a little history. I was diagnosed with stage three breast cancer in February of 2009. I had an 8cm mass in my right breast that had already entered my lymph nodes and possibly was in my right hip. (They could not confirm my hip just that it looked suspicious.) I went through four months of aggressive chemotherapy and then had a bilateral mastectomy with reconstructive surgery. I went through two months of stretching my muscles to prepare for implants and then started radiation therapy five days a week for six weeks. After a sufficient amount of healing time I was able to finish the reconstructive surgery and have my implants inserted. After having a PET scan in December I was diagnosed as "cancer free". But in June of 2010 I received another PET scan and was told my cancer was back and in multiple spots in my bones. My oncologist told me there was nothing I could do and that this time it would take my life. I DON'T THINK SO!!!

My battle to live begins with a quest for knowledge!! We had three different people in one day recommend two naturalist doctors in Nashville so we called and made an appointment to go see them the very next day. They told us three main things that had to change immediately.

1. My oxygen levels must increase at an absurd level

2. My acidity level must lower and become more alkaline

3. My body must be filled with only raw vegatables

We went home immediately and got on the internet and found crazy amounts of info explaining why these three things are so important. I will try to explain and not jump around too much!! LOL!!

First.... Cancer cannot survive in an oxygen rich environment.

I have found a clinic that I can have hyperbaric treatments. This means I get into a huge duffle bag and they zip me in and raise the pressure while I am breathing 95% pure oxygen. The pressure forces the oxygen down to the cellular level. My naturalist doctors have informed me that I will need to do this for a while since it is in my bones.

Second... Cancer needs acidity to multiply and grow. It thrives in an acidic environment.

I am drinking alkaline water that I get from the clinic. A filter that does this is expensive, but someday I hope to afford it. It is totally worth it for the whole family to consume this water. Also I am taking corral calcium which works to make me more alkaline as well. But the best kind of corral calcium to use is the one from the Okinawan Sea. I found some at GNC.

Thirdly... Cancer is fed by so many things but veggies fight it. I have found that veggies have enzymes that attack the cell walls of cancer. Now I am on a strict diet of juicing, and that is because the juice is full of enzymes (which must be drunk as soon as juiced since the enzymes die quickly) and they go straight into your system and start attacking the cancer cells.

I can't have meat. It is very acidic and it will pull enzymes out of my bloodstream to help digest it.

No sugar either. Of any kind! Cancer feeds on sugar!! It's like its chocolate!!!

No dairy, it creates mucus which the cancer feeds on as well.

Even fruit is only in very, very small amounts because of the natural sugar.

My cancer is driven by estrogen, so I can't eat soy or soy products because it helps to make estrogen. Estrogen is like the engine.

So, in the midst of all of this we had some friends who got me a Health Master. It is like the Superman of blenders!!! LOL!! I highly recommend getting one!! It is awesome for emulsifying veggies and I get to eat the whole veggie not just the juice! It comes with six recipe books...really yummy!!

Before the Health Master, I was juicing around 25 lbs of carrots a week!!! Yeah, that's a truck load of carrots!! The recipe that the doctors gave me calls for carrots, beet, celery, apple, tomato, romaine lettuce, red bell pepper, kyogreen, flaxseed oil, and cayenne pepper. It is actually rather tastey and you can add other spices like ginger or garlic if you want to spice it up. I'll have to post the exact recipe for everyone.

The website where we go to find out what is best to eat and how good it is for you, is... WHfoods.com. It stands for the worlds healtiest foods. It is an awesome wealth of information when you need to know what you can and can't eat.

The other is Hallelujah Acres.com. It has awesome recipes for all natural diets.

80% of your diet should be raw veggies and 20% cooked. Makes for a perfect attack on cancer cells.